/Edit: my aunt died. Life is a shit.
[Warning: this is my own drama, you don't have to read]
It's been over a year since I've been frustrated with my art, deviantArt and everything.
It's hard to get noticed, get people to buy your art or support you... things aren't very well here. Bills, and now family health problems. I'm afraid of losing someone in my family.
I can't help with any bills because I don't have a job. "Go get a job then." Easy to say. I have depression and social phobia, I don't go out alone. I had hope when I opened a Patreon account. And until now I just receive $1 per month (I thank the person so much for being my first patron, it's mean a lot to me ç.ç).
I think is every artist's dream to gain money through their art. But damn, it's so fucking hard!! D8 Everyone should have a chance. Why this world is so difficult?
I just feel frustration when I make an art and post. And I like to post. I like attention, as anyone else. I try so hard, I don't know more what to do. I probably will stop with the drawings, soon or later. I think about it a long time ago. I know we have make art for ourselves, to feel good, happy, distracted. But I don't know what I feel anymore. It's everything so unclear.
I cannot do much now but rant. D8 Sorry my boredoom, and my english.
In my head I have a better rant, but when is to write, everything going mixed. XD
I probably will be less active.I think I just will post random shitty things on my facebook page.
Well, right now I do have a lineart done from a reference drawing. Maybe I'll have mood to color it soon and post it to you.
Sorry, and thanks for everyone who support me, every friend I made here. You are all special. Nayu loves you.
(And about the family health problem... my aunt is in the hospital. Her case is serious.)